a facade..

people see me in school,and they see this happy go lucky guy,always cracking jokes,playing the fool,generally a good guy.But what they dont know is the baggage that i've brought ever since i was in primary school till ITE.

I want to change,to turn into a new leaf.Thats why i thought being in poly might be a good way to start a new life by changing my personality.But sometimes,just repressing yourself makes it worse.I have my fair share of vices.Ever since i was young,i've cursed,got into fights alot,beaten people up,but i thought i could change.Only a handful of people know my life story and i want to keep it that way.But things just comes to a head when i am provoked.I turn to my alter ego,the one in trying to refrain myself from turning into when i'm incensed or very upset.My angry face,what i like to call my 'game face',is something that i dont want people to see.It scares the living daylights out of people,and it scares me too.Thats why i like to smile,laugh and joke around so that i wont turn to a monster.But when people piss me off,just like this morning (which i wont go into),it turns me off,it just stokes my fire of hatred.And then i turn to a monster.

Everyone has a facade,a fake image of themselves.We all do it,wether consciously or not.But i know who are sincere and who are not.I can read them like a book.

For now,i try to keep my cool,i dont want to revert to the person i was a few years ago,for i hope no one suffers at my hands again.I might be a good guy,but dont try me.You'll regret it.I promise you that.

And for all those fakers out there,watch out,the truth will come out,sooner or later.Drop the act.